wandering in the desert

desert

I feel like I have been wandering in the desert for weeks.
Walking around hungry and thirsty. I feel lost.
The crazy part is I have this map in my hand, well it’s more of a book, that tells me exactly where to go.
This book tells me exactly where to go to get my drink of refreshing water and bread to sustain me, it gives me the precise coordinates to my destination, whichever path I choose to take.

But for some reason when I am looking at the words they are not clear, they seem fuzzy and distant.

I know it’s not the book that has something wrong with it. It’s me.
I am the one preventing myself from following the path to fulfillment, joy, peace, love and … well home.
I am the reason I am still wandering alone in this desert.

Again, But why?
I feel like I am in one of those lost seasons of life. I attend church, I attend BSF, I help prepare a bible study, I am in a small group, but something is missing.

My relationship with Jesus is not as strong as it once was. I know it’s due to my lack of effort in our relationship. I know how to fix it, I think, but I struggle to do it.

Please tell me I am not alone in this season. That I am not the only one who knows what to do but sits idle on the sidelines waiting for the energy to pick myself up and enter the game fully again.

I long to be back in the place where Jesus is my breath. Where I wake I longing to sit with him. Where I go to bed falling asleep dreaming of our day together.

That is my prayer, that is my fight song, to be with Jesus. All day everyday. In all my thoughts, in all my words, actions, plans, and schedules. I want Him to be my reason for waking each morning. Not my to do list.

Will you join me in praying that each of us will relight that fire within us and be fully on fire for Jesus?

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Sinner turned saint. Lover of Jesus. DIY crafter. Mom of 3. Blogger. Friend. married to her high school sweetheart. I blogs to share about the things I love. My hope is that my love for crafting, Jesus, family, and food will inspire you to try something new. If you enjoy what you read, don’t forget to subscribe to my blog!

Comments

  1. This, dear friend, describes my present journey perfectly. I am encouraged that I’m not alone and encouraged to continue to pray for that fire to return to my heart and yours. We overcome so much, you and I, before we even get out of bed in the morning. I think this is part of it and I am struggling to learn how to thrive when my life is so much about survival. It may be the same for you, I don’t know. I will be praying! Much love and blessings to you!

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