overcoming depression symptoms {part 2}

If you missed our coffee date last week then you may want to catch up before reading this post.  Then read part one of how I am battling this time in my life.

how i am overcoming depression symptoms in my life, with God’s help. 

1. Sometimes I say is this really worth my time. Will they even see Jesus in this? Am I even the right person to share this? They don’t care anyway. They will never accept Christ anyway. I will never be like them even if I keep reading this. I will never be able to move even if I keep decluttering. I will always have extra weight, why try.

I say: “It’s not worth it”
God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28)

2. If they can’t forgive me why should I? I say I forgive me but then I beat myself up over and over. I will never hold them, see them, smell, them or say I love. I can’t expect them to follow my rules if I broke them all myself when I was their age.

I say: “I can’t forgive myself”
God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

3. I am a failure. I can not even finish all the things a stay at home mom should. I can not teach them because I don’t know how. I can not make a monthly budget because we don’t have enough money to make a budget. I can not switch fusion centers because I don’t know if my insurance will cover it.

I say: “I can’t manage”
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians
4:19)

4. I am afraid they well think I am weak, not good enough, messed up, and a freak.  I am afraid people will think this is a pity party, its not. I am afraid we will never move out of our too small house. I am afraid if we do move we will not be able to afford it. I am afraid that my family will not be with me in heaven. I am afraid friendships I once loved are now over. I am afraid that I am letting people down. I am afraid that when I change fusion centers the new nurses will not love me and know me like nurse Mary does. I am afraid that I will never be “Christian” enough.

I say: “I’m afraid”
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

3. I am worried that I am messing up my children. I am worried that I am not being a good enough wife. I am worried that because I am not crunchy my families health will suffer. I am worried that I should be worried about being crunchy! I am frustrated that even that I can not eat carrot sticks and salad but can eat cake all day long. I am frustrated that I have had 3 surgeries and I still have bad days. I am frustrated that my husband still has to work 2 jobs. I am frustrated that I am being a worrier. I am worried that I have sleep apnea. I am frustrated that I don’t feel rested in the morning. I am frustrated that I would rather have 30 minutes more of sleep then spend time in the word.

I say: “I’m worried and frustrated”
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)

4. I don’t feel like I will ever get it. I don’t feel smart enough to mentor anyone. I don’t feel smart enough to defend my reasons for not wanting to be a crunchy person. I don’t feel smart enough to look into my disease. I don’t feel smart enough to help my husband with his homework. I don’t feel smart enough to lead someone to Christ. I don’t feel smart enough to even share the Gospel with a stranger; I don’t feel smart enough to uncover God’s word without help.

I say: “I’m not smart enough”
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians
1:30)

5. I feel like I am surrounded by people but am alone. That I don’t quite fit in. I know people are there that love me and care for me. But I feel so alone. I feel like I don’t even understand my thoughts so how can I explain them enough so someone else can understand? I feel like I pour my heart out on my blog and hear crickets chirping at me. I feel like I cry out to God sometimes and hear nothing but screaming kids, a tea kettle whistle and the laundry buzzer. I feel like I beg God for things but then it gets worse. I feel like I am alone in battling my insecurities. I feel like I am alone because I have not sought God first.

I say: “I feel all alone”
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

6. I feel like my faith is not strong enough to help me find the answers. I feel I am too much of a baby Christian to seek the right help. I feel like my faith is not strong enough to withstand complete rejection. I feel like I don’t know enough about my faith to make the right choice. I feel like my faith is not good enough. I feel like a failure for not desiring to know theology, doctrine, and other big words bible students love.

I say: “I don’t have enough faith”
God says: I have given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)

You see the bible does not say that God will not give us more than we can handle.
It says he will not allow us to be tempted beyond what we can bear.

The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.
1 Corinthians 10:13

I know that when my mind wanders and the ugly thoughts pop into my head they are not from God. I know that he would not want me to feel this way. I also know that because we live in a sinful fallen world… ugly happens. That Ugly is a part of our lives. I keep moving forward because God will not leave me in these times of ugly. We will always provide a way for me to see beauty again. He will always walk before me and protect me, pick me up, and carry me when I need him to.

Friend if you are felling or have felt these feelings please know that Jesus loves you. That he has promised so many things to you and me.

God says:
God says: It will be worth it
God says: I forgive you
God says: I will supply all your needs
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
God says: I give you wisdom
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
God says: I have given everyone a measure of faith

how about you? have you struggled with or are struggling with depression? How have/did/are you overcoming the symptoms?

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Comments

  1. Courtney says:

    thanks for being so brutally honest. a lot of what you have written really resonates, and its scary, i don’t feel depressed. i do have a question and it seems we are similar points on the path: how do you just give it over to God? i keep reading to trust in Him and be faithful, how do you do that? i want to but i keep thinking He wants us to do for ourselves as much as possible, how do i know when to let Him take the wheel? any insight would be helpful, great blog!

  2. I also suffer from depression. It started after my daughter was born in ’96, and it’s still with me. I have taken every med in existence, and regularly see a therapist. It is “controlled,” at the moment, but it is still there, in the background, waiting to swallow me up once again. I get dressed now. I stay out of bed during the day. I seem perfectly normal. But I’m not. Major Depression, Severe, Recurrent. It is a chronic condition with no real cure. I pray that you will find peace.

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