I wish I could tell you that I’ve been feeling wonderful since being off my Crohn’s medication–that I’ve had not one yucky symptom, no sleepless night, no swelling in my hands–but that would be lying.
I’ve had major flare-ups, days when I couldn’t get out of bed, times when I didn’t think I’d be able to take care of myself or my kids, days when my husband had to stay home from work so I could lay in bed. There were times when I wondered if I should have tried harder to restart my medication, times when I would plead with God to take it all away.
There have also been good days, days when I was very careful of what went into my body, days when I stayed up way too late but felt rested and woke up early, days when I cooked, cleaned, and baked all day.
Then one day things changed for me…
Two and half weeks ago I was driving home from running errands. I was praying to God, asking him what He had planned for me in 2014. I heard him in a non-audible voice tell me that He would heal me. I paused, then I asked again, “Really You’re going to heal me?” A giant smile came across my face as felt the “Yes” whispered in my ear. I started giggling, next came tears and then laughter, along with more prayers, thanking God for this miracle that He was going to do in my life.
I have been prayed over by our elders before for healing, and each time I never felt God say, “Yes, I will heal your Crohn’s.” He had healed me in many other ways physically and emotionally. This time it felt different when I asked. I know that God is going to heal me; I have no doubts. I’m not sure what this healing will look like or when it will happen, I have full trust in God.
When I find myself on my knees, so sick I am barely able to walk or open my eyes to the massive headache pounding inside, I know I can hold on to the robe of Jesus because He said He would heal me.
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