finding joy

words from my personal journal

I am sharing with you words from my journal.
personal words that reflect my heart.
because these words are from my journal, there is no rules, grammatical rules, punctuation, sentence structure, or story outline..
just my words, my thoughts, my interpretations…

Journal entry 3-25-13

Today my heart and mind are dancing.
My thoughts feel so incomplete
I feel a burning to share

  • Share my heart
  • Share my questions
  • Share my passion
  • Share my love for others

Today I want to become more transparent
To show you my struggles and seek your council
you may have noticed that the tagline for my blog is

“Inspiring women to find joy in all things”

I hope that is true when you read these pages
That you can find a glimmer of hope and joy within each post.

But friends
I am struggling with that
with finding joy in the everyday; in all things

  • In cleaning
  • In disciplining
  • In rebuking
  • In forgiving
  • In being content

I am struggling with the fact that I want you to find joy in all things but I can’t.

This friends is where Satan gets me
And to be honest he does not have to work very hard at it.
It’s like I leave the door of doubt cracked open
With an invitation to enter and cause destruction

But today
Today I am closing that door
Today I am taking back the control I gave the evil one

I want to feel true eucharisteo 
Ann Voskamp writes, in One Thousand Gifts, Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are, 

“The root word of eucharisteo is charis, meaning “grace.” Jesus took the bread and saw it as grace and gave thanks. He took the bread and knew it to be gift and gave thanks.
But there is more, and I read it. Eucharisteo, thanksgiving, envelopes the Greek word for grace, charis. But it also holds its derivative, the Greek word chara, meaning “joy.” Joy. Ah…yes. I might be needing me some of that. That might be what the quest for more is all about–that which Augustine claimed, “Without exception…all try their hardest to reach the same goal, that is joy.”

Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have.  I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. (Philippians 4:11-12)

“Learn how to be thankful-whether empty or full.  Gratitude in the midst of death and divorce and debt-that’s the language I’ve got to learn to speak-because that’s the kind of life I’m living, the kind I have to solve.  If living eucharisteo is the key to unlocking the mystery of life, this I want.  I want to hunt, the long sleuth, the careful piecing together.  To learn how to be grateful and happy, whether hands full or hands empty.  That is a secret worth spending a life on learning.“  ~Ann Voskamp

About 2-3 years ago I read Ann Voskamp’s book 1000 gifts with a group of women.
We set out to create our own list of 1000 things we are thankful for.
Somewhere around number 300 I dropped off.
I felt overwhelmed and I quit.

This week I want to try again.
But no dead line, no specific number to reach.
Just me, God, my journal, and eucharisteo 

eucharisteo

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I want to be living in full eucharisteo 
In my actions, my words, but most of all my heart.

This will be a lifestyle change. Not a chore, not a check list, but a heart change. 

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Sinner turned saint. Lover of Jesus. DIY crafter. Mom of 3. Blogger. Friend. married to her high school sweetheart. I blogs to share about the things I love. My hope is that my love for crafting, Jesus, family, and food will inspire you to try something new. If you enjoy what you read, don’t forget to subscribe to my blog!

Comments

  1. I love Anne! Been reading her blog for years! I also started the list and stopped. life just got busy and it got put on the back burner. When I pulled it out, my oldest saw it, asked what it was. So I explained to her. Her response, wow your not very thankful 🙁 Such a blow, but we talked about it and have gone in and out of the journaling of it.

    I’ve been reminded to be thankful even when I’m empty or don’t know answers. As always thanks for sharing your heart. xo
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  2. Michele Walkup says:

    If you go here: http://www.aholyexperience.com/joy-dares/ on her website, she has Joy-Dare cards for each month that give you a challenge and direction to help find joy in different things each day. You can print them and have them around for days when it is hard to think of something.

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